I have a confession to make... I'm not actually Plok. I'm just regular ol' person with all the problems that come with being a regular person. Most people are kind folks, but I feel certain they aren't super interested in the ongoing goings-on going on in my life. People have their own problems and I'm not special, but writing helps sometimes. I keep a diary, but I have the habit of writing in a style that looks as though I'm writing to another person. Sometimes I wish there really was someone else listening. You know, someone other than Big Brother. It's not necessarily that I want advice or the attention, but sometimes it helps just knowing that someone hears me, and that somebody understands.

I was a happy kid for the most part, but kinda lonely I guess. I didn't go to school as a child and wasn't around other kids much. I was home schooled and basically my own teacher. That's fun and all, but the isolation absolutely destroyed my social development and it seems the damage might be permanent. I love my parents, but they were very uninvolved in raising me. I was pretty much raised by cartoons, video games and Legos. As an adult (if indeed I am one) I have an incredibly difficult time talking to others, making eye-contact, just being in public. I don't keep a phone because I'm honestly terrified of phone calls. That must sound pretty dumb. I'm nervous just being with friends. I've been in college for 6 years and I'm still terrified every single day. I took speech classes in hopes of improving my communication skills, but they didn't help. If anything I feel it's gotten worse over time. I'm still as awkward as a braille billboard. I don't know what that means. I could take online classes, but ironically I don't want that. I don't want to be alone or isolated all the time. People say weird is good, but I'd kill just to be a little more normal. With all this said, I'm still hopeful. When I write in my diary, I always make myself end with something positive. In lighter news, I've stuck to my new diet and physically I feel good. Still flabby, but feeling healthier.

I have a lot more to say, but I'll stop here for now. I don't want to get too deep in the weeds just yet. Anyways, if you made it this far, thank you. I don't know what it's like to be you, but maybe you can relate to some of this or found some value in it. With that said, I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day and eat all the spaghetti :-)

-Brortm1995

Have you ever been stuck behind THAT guy? That guy at the drive-thru who apparently ordered every single item on the menu while everyone behind is left in fast food purgatory. If your receipt is a 27-page document, maybe go inside and order, Big Smoke.

Just realized that YouTube has been setting my videos as "for kids" lately. Basically, that means my videos are recommended to little kids first and foremost and my target audience isn't likely to find them. Furthermore, I can no longer get comments on many of my videos and that makes me very sad. This all scares me because a lot of my videos are not remotely made for kids. Many of my YTP videos are blatantly offensive and vulgar. I don't want kids watching my videos, and I don't want parents to find their kids watching my inappropriate videos and report me. Parents shouldn't let YouTube babysit their kids anyway. It's a mess.

-Braftn1995

I don't love chocolate ice cream. I like chocolate ice cream, but I'm not in like with it. Of all the ice creams, it's my least most favorite. It's been a rough day and all I want to do is eat cookie dough ice cream until I turn into a cow. All I want to dough is eat cookie do. All dough is want do eat cookie. Dough do cookie eat cookie. Cookies eat dough do want cookie. Cookie dough do day.

-Bortn1997

I like to make memes sometimes ^.^'

There have been rumors floating around lately that, well, we might be getting a Jaws remake. I'm not a big Jaws fan, but I don't see the point in remaking such an iconic film. It's like repainting the Mona Lisa; you can make it technically more impressive, better even, but it's never going to be as memorable or important. Maybe if they go in a totally different direction and explored interesting, new ideas it could work, but they won't. You know it would just be the same movie but with a hokey CGI shark and a more diverse cast being in big CGI situations. It's probably gonna be the Rock playing some ex-military, ex-cop, ex-agent in a sweaty brown shirt being hunted by an evil computer shark, and it'll be filled with "I remember that!" moments to tickle one's nostalgia gland. DUNdunDUNdunDUNdunDUNdunDUNAHNAAAAHH!!!

I made this quality mock-up and emailed it to Hot Pockets. They have not responded -.-

I like trying different diets. Sometimes it's fun to mix things up. Over the last year or so I've made the grave mistake of associating YouTube and TV with food. Oh, I'm watching a video, I should eat a giant sandwich while I watch this, even if I'm not all that hungry. Well no more! YouTube / TV shows and food are now oil and water. Furthermore, food after 10:00 pm? I think we should break up. I eat WAY too much late at night and my body doesn't need it. Sitting at my computer doesn't require that much energy. A cup of coffee or tea is sufficient. I don't so much need to lose weight, but I think I would feel better if I didn't eat so much, and I think I would enjoy shows and videos more if it weren't based around a meal. I'm still normal weight for my height, but I've been steadily gaining weight for a while now and I'm concerned about my health. It's not about vanity. I find nothing physically unattractive about people being a little heavy. I just don't feel good. I have pain in my chest sometimes, I feel like my blood pressure is 5000 whenever I stand up, and overall I just feel crummy. I'm sure eating less won't solve all my problems, but hopefully it's a step in the right direction, and at very least a fun experiment. Bring it on.

I'm approximately 108.6% sure nobody who follows me cares about my personal life, but I find it helpful to share my thoughts and feelings. New Grounds has basically been my blog lately. Hail Satan.

Thunderstorms and highs in the 70s in January. Why not...

The new year will begin on different moments depending on where you are in the world and what calendar you use. We've got 24 confusing time zones with little rhyme or reason, there are about forty different calendars in use today, and who's to say your clock is 100% accurate? Unless we all use an ultra-precise atomic clock, agree to follow a universal time keeping system and have one unified world calendar, then we can count down the seconds until the new year.